In less than a week, it'd have been a month since my Mom died. It still feels a little surreal but I'm slowly getting used to not talking or texting her. It's hard and I feel like crying even as I write this, but each day gets a little easier. I still hate that she won't be around to see her grandchildren or see me get married. (No, I'm not pregnant or getting married. Calm yo tits people.)
Another thing. I've been gay since I was 12 but now this guy comes around and I find myself legitimately liking him. Problem? He's my ex girlfriend's ex fiance and I've heard some rather bad things about their relationship. He treats me well, compliments me all the time and makes me feel awesome, but I don't know how I feel about those little things. Sure, that was years ago and he's probably a changed person, but... I'm a little wary.
That and I don't know if I want to give up nine years of being gay for one person. I don't want people to think I was going through a phase and all that bullshit. I'm still highly attracted to women; just this one guy caught my attention. I don't love him, not yet. Just legitimate liking someone that goes beyond a typical friendship.
Eh. Why is life so complicated.
Oh right! I'm also playing Dragon Age: Origins and I am on my way to romancing Zevran. >:3 I watched a video of the sexy times and the conversations after and omg it was so cute. That kiss you can give him in the camp is squeal worthy. 'Course I'm a male Dalish elf and the person's video was of the gay timez. In my head, my elf is as gay as they get. Teehee.
We also adopted a new cat, Spudnick. His previous owners abandoned him and we took him in. He fought with our cat in the beginning (nothing physical, just hissing and growling) but now he's on my chair while Tigger is sleeping on my bed. I hope they're getting along now, because I don't want to get rid of Spudnick after we've given him a second home. x_x
Anyway that is everything for now. Adios deviantART.
